1st Anniversary

Well, here we are… one year behind us, with so many more yet to come. Part of me wants to say it was a journey, but at the same time it always felt like coming home, home to a place I belong but didn’t know about. That place being by your side. If you asked me about what I was going to write for our first anniversary a year ago, I would’ve expected to say something like “The time has gone by so fast…”. But actually, the opposite is the case. This year has felt very long, longer than any year before. The reason being, that you made me cherish every single moment of it, enjoying every single hour that I get to spend with you.

And every day was special, one way or another. Days we spent laughing, enjoying ourselves and feeling like there are not problems in this world as long as we have each other. Days on which one of us was struggling, and on which we gave each other love, comfort and warmth to get through rough spots. And every single one of those days led up to the bond we share now, going deeper than anything I could ever imagine. Of course, there are still many questions unanswered and a lot of uncertainty, cause neither of us can predict to future in the end. But if there’s one thing I’m sure of, it’s that no matter what happens, our love will grow with every passing year.

Generally, I would have planned to take you out somewhere nice on a day like this, but the current situation of the world sadly doesn’t allow for that. But does it really matter in the end? However, we are going to spend this day, it will always be wonderful when it’s the two of us. In the end, making you happy is what makes me happy, and vice versa. It really is interesting how just a single smile from you can change my mood to sunshine in an instant. I know you take promises very seriously, but I wasn’t lying when I said I won’t ever let a single tear of sadness leave your eyes again. Your happiness is what I live for, as it is my happiness. I know that you have been struggling with loving yourself due to your past, but I truly hope that my love has shown you how wonderful you really are, how beautiful, how caring, and how selfless. Because you have definitely taught me to love myself.

We really are matching puzzle pieces, and while there still definitely is a lot I still want to achieve in my life, especially for you, I still feel completed in a way. Every single day, you make me push forward, no problem too hard to overcome, to make you proud and create a future for us to enjoy. Falling in love with you has taught me to be aware of the unknown. If someone asked me two years ago, if I was truly happy, I would have said yes. And now I’m here laughing at my former self, as he had no idea. The thought that I could have never met you, and would never have noticed what I missed is interesting yet discomforting. But in the end, what’s important is that destiny lead us toward each other. You’re just a half-elf girl with a rough past, I’m just a boy with high hopes and goals. And yet there is no denying that we are meant for each other. Neither of us is perfect, far from it. And yet we are perfect for each other.

Here I go writing way more than I intended to again, and I can already see myself sitting right here in a year, doing the exact same. I really am hopeless, aren’t I? :^) I’m not usually the person to express my feelings to others than you, but in this case I just felt like writing things down, maybe just to look at it a year from now… I really wonder how the next year will go, and in which ways our relationship will develop. But why am I even concerned over that, there’s no way it won’t be absolutely beautiful. So I think the best I can do is just close my eyes, kiss you, and jump straight into everything this adventure is going to bring.

But please promise me that I can bury my face in your hair again when I’m feeling down… Cause in those moments it feels like this world comes to a halt for a moment, with all my problems being blown away in an instant. In return, I will kiss your ears again, and don’t act like you don’t secretly like it^^ Oh well, looking at it from the outside we might really be a childish couple sometimes. But that’s fine, this dynamic is what makes our relationship so incredibly special, and it’s how we express our love to each other, and I wouldn’t wish for that to be any different. But it’s just one facete of our relationship in the end, there’s times to be serious, times to be romantic, times to be full of humor… and I love every single one of them;

Because I love you.

Happy anniversary Emilia. I am yours and you are mine. Today, Tomorrow, and for all days to come.